Oct 03 2009
Grief and Pain
I get a lot of grief and pain – all sorts of shapes and sizes. My past relationships have given me grief, by thinking about what I coulda and shoulda done. I get pain from dealing with my so-called friends and family, which I would harbor to distance myself from a lot of potentially good people in my life.
God works with grief and pain to send wake up calls to me. I did and said a lot of stupid things. The grief would surface to remind me that I didn’t have to think about the past. I just need to learn from it, and not make the same mistake again. God would let pain happen, but physically and emotionally, to help me understand consequences of my actions.
Inevitably, I’m not in control. There were times when I took the wheel and be the driver of my life. I crashed and burned! Then I would blame God for letting it happen. Then I realized, it was my fault in the first place. I didn’t let God control me. Only bad things happen when it was just about me, myself, and I.
Only God has the power to help me change.
I must mourn for my loss of control. I must mourn for my grief and pain – and let them go.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
